When I see you,
I get those cliche butterflies.
My heart beats faster.

When you smile at me,
my smile gets brighter.

When you talk to me,
I want to catch every little thing you say.

When you hug me,
I feel safe in your arms,
nothing can hurt me in that moment.
My heart bursts.

I want to know everything about you,
small or big.

I think it's very possible that I'm falling for you.

I'm lost.
How do I get back?
I want to find my way back to happiness.
I feel like everyone expects me to be strong for them.
So I am.
For them.
I'm trying at least.
But how do I stay strong for myself
when it feels like no one is there?

Here's To You.

Here's to the people from my past.
Here's to the people who left a mark on my heart.
Here's to the people who made me laugh,
who held my hand,
who have seen me at my best,
who have seen me at my worst,
to the people who loved me no matter what.

I know we don't talk much anymore,
and we never hang out.
We have moved in different directions.
Who knows where we will all end up.
We're making new memories,
new stories,
new friends.

To all those people,
I just wanted to let you know
that you will always be my friend.
Anytime you need something,
let me know.
I miss you.

You.

When I'm around you,
I want to spin in circles.
You make me laugh.
You make me feel stupid.
You make me feel like it's okay to be me.

But I'm scared.
I don't know what to do.
I wish I could read your mind,
I wish you would give me a hint as to how you feel.
We could be friends forever,
and that would be amazing.
I just want to let you know how special you are.

You're up in the air.
But then something comes along.
Someone leaves, a break up, some one dies.
Hope leaves. Confidence leaves.
Hearts get broken.

At first you're lost. You're stuck.
You don't know what to do.

But then one morning you wake up.
Things are clear again.
Something is different now.
You have hope for the future.
You slowly get your confidence back.
Your heart is healed.

Of course you have your rocky days.
Days where you think about the past,
days where you miss the past and want it back.
You get moody.
You hide in a book,
you hide in yourself.

Growing.

It's just another day.
Wake up, do the same thing.
It's time to start something new.
Something needs to change.

It's just another day.
Spinning in circles.
Something needs to change.

It's a new day.
Wake up, feel happy.
Be yourself, be true.
Forget your fears, forget the past.
Something is changing.

It's a new day.
It's your lucky day.
Something is changing.

It's your day.
Wake up, ready to go.
It's your day of opportunity.
Today is the day you're finally free,
the day you finally know what you're doing.
Something has changed.

It's your day.
Take a risk.
Something has changed.

Unfinished.

I used to think you were the one who would save me.
You did, to a point.
But then I realized that I need to save myself.
So that's what I'm doing.
Saving myself.
Working through my problems,
my fears.

I'm not that strong,
but I'm going to try.
It's time for something new.
I'm not changing,
just becoming more me.

Why can't you see?

I wish you would see
When I see your smile I smile a little brighter
When I see you, or hear your voice,
my heart skips a little and I get butterflies.
You and me,
we're not perfect.
But in my eyes, you are.
I want to get to know you better.
I want to know your every quirk.
I want to be able to hang out with you.
I just wish you would see me.

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"Not the right time" hurts. It hurts really bad. So don't let it get to you. Move on. Live your life. Find something you love and make it your passion. What ever was holding you back doesn't have to hold you back anymore. You're free.

So how have you been lately? Really. I want to know everything. Every small detail. I care, and I miss you. Here's my story. I've been doing fantastic minus the small hole in my heart. I'm looking for someone to fill that hole. Here's the thing though. I only want you.

This? It hurts. It really hurts. But here's the thing. I do it for you. I want you to be happy.

You have this way of making me smile and laugh like no one else does. There's something about you I can't get away from. Maybe it's because you were my first, and you'll always be in my heart. I think I'm over you, and then BAM! You're back into my life once again.

Way to go, kid. You confused her yet again. Just make up your mind.

I'm sorry.

I'm not the kind of girl who pays attention to her looks all the time.
I wear make up occasionally.
I break out.
I'm not skinny.
I have curves.
I bite my nails, but I try not to.
I love to cuddle under blankets and watch movies.
I probably watch too much TV.
I get annoyed easily.
I'm always listening, even if it doesn't look like it.
I love to write.
I read all the time,
it's safe to say I'm a complete bookworm.
I usually have music on.
I listen to everything, even though I don't like to admit it.
Quotes tell my life story.
I love colors.
I have big dreams for my life.
I'm slightly afraid of heights, but I'm learning to deal.
I love Disney.
I don't party,
I've never had a drink.
I'm thinking about getting a tattoo, but not until I graduate.
I miss my friends,
and after talking to family on the phone I get a little homesick.
I love kids.
My favorite thing to drink is water,
apple and orange juice are next.
I didn't get a cell phone until I was eighteen.
I watch reruns all the time.
I love shows like American Idol and Secret Life.
I love bright colors.
I don't know how to swim.
I love school.
I love cooking.
I'm learning to play piano, I kind of suck right now.
I've played flute for a really long time.

I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm just me.
I'm not her, and I never will be.
I'm just me.
You don't have to like me,
but please don't judge me.

I'm not ready.
I'm kind of scared.
I want to go back and change things.
I wish I was more sure of myself.
Do I take the harder road?
Or do I go for what's easiest?

I don't want to be compared.
I just want to be me.
I can't tell you how I really feel,
because I don't know anymore.

Another old one.

You're my sunshine on a cloudy day.
Sounds so cliche.
But it's so true.
You can make me smile
when everyone else makes me sad.
You can make me laugh
when all I want to do is cry.
You aren't always there,
but when you are,
you know the right things to say.

I can never completely let you go.
I loved you.
You know almost everything about me.
That's got to mean something, right?
I don't care if you move,
get married,
have kids...
Whatever.
I will always consider you a friend.
A part of me will always love you,
no matter how much I hate you.

Oldddd.

Day after day.
Night after night.
Trouble after trouble.
Over and over again.

But wait-
someone's watching over me.
Jesus, my king.
My Savior, my Lord,
my Love.

He will protect me
day and night.
His love is everlasting.
He watches over me,
he's always there.

Jesus I love you.
With all my heart,
with all my soul,
with all my mind.
I love you and your
everlasting love.

Oldddd.

You know me better than I do.
So please help me
believe in myself
like I believe in you.

You have the power
to change me around,
and you have the knowledge
to show me the secret.

So please help me.
Show me how.
Believe in me.
Share that confidence.
I know that I can do things
with your help.

I'm scared.
I'm scared because I believe in everyone else
more than I believe in myself.