things are changing.
more than i could ever imagine.
so much is happening at once.
it's hard to deal with everything now.
but i have the support i need.
i can make it.
we can make it.
things are going to get better,
not worse.
it can't get much worse then this.
so i'm going to keep my hope.
i'm going to stay strong
for the people who need me the most now.
things are changing,
and i might not be ready,
but i'm not going to fall.

everything i see
reminds me of you.
a stuffed animal or two,
pictures,
a song or two,
your sweatshirts.
even wearing that dress makes me think of you.
i want to stay away from those memories.
i don't want to forget.
you changed me,
you changed my life.
you said i wouldn't have a reason to miss you,
but i do.
i still love you,
that's my reason.
we weren't perfect,
but we definitely had our moments.
we're over now.
there's no going back.

i smile.
but it's fake.
i'm happy.
yet at the same time i'm sad.
i don't want to feel this way anymore.
it's not your fault,
so don't blame yourself.
do something now.
help me.
love me.
be there for me.
i'll slowly start being happy again.