you know me
better than i do.
please help me
believe in myself,
like i believe in you.

you have the power,
to change me around,
and you have the knowledge,
to show me the secret.

so please help me.
show me how.
share that confidence.
i know that i can do all things with your help.

bye.

this is so hard.
i miss you.
so very much.
but we're apart now.
nothing can change that.
i might not exactly be over you yet.
but i will be.
i'm almost there.
you moved on,
and so can i.
we had some great times.
i will never forget those.
this is my good bye.

things are changing.
more than i could ever imagine.
so much is happening at once.
it's hard to deal with everything now.
but i have the support i need.
i can make it.
we can make it.
things are going to get better,
not worse.
it can't get much worse then this.
so i'm going to keep my hope.
i'm going to stay strong
for the people who need me the most now.
things are changing,
and i might not be ready,
but i'm not going to fall.

everything i see
reminds me of you.
a stuffed animal or two,
pictures,
a song or two,
your sweatshirts.
even wearing that dress makes me think of you.
i want to stay away from those memories.
i don't want to forget.
you changed me,
you changed my life.
you said i wouldn't have a reason to miss you,
but i do.
i still love you,
that's my reason.
we weren't perfect,
but we definitely had our moments.
we're over now.
there's no going back.

i smile.
but it's fake.
i'm happy.
yet at the same time i'm sad.
i don't want to feel this way anymore.
it's not your fault,
so don't blame yourself.
do something now.
help me.
love me.
be there for me.
i'll slowly start being happy again.

today i realized.

today i realized
that we have grown apart.
i've known this for a long time now,
but it finally clicked.
we've grown up.
we've done different things.
we have one thing keeping us together.
i hate this.
i miss you.
when something funny happens,
i want to tell you.
remember us.

why do you do this?
why do you treat me like this?
i don't understand.
you make me feel so bad.
you are the one person
who i don't expect this from.
i want to fly away,
and it's pretty much your fault.