Music-part one.

So I'm supposed to be doing my homework,
but I'm really listening to music and doing other things. :]
I thought I would share some music that I like,
and it won't be in any particular order,
just what song comes on first. :]

1. Cry- Mandy Moore
I don't really like Mandy Moore, but I fell in love with this song when it played in A Walk To Remember. This one of two songs I like by her.

2. If I Ain't Got You- Alicia Keys
There are songs I hate by Alicia Keys. I really like this one though. Her voice is amazing.
I love these lines: "Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all. If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby"

3. Fallin'- Alicia Keys
Another Alicia Keys song. I love it, thanks to my Mom. Reminds me a lot of someone I don't exactly want to think about all the time though.

4. Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis
The first time I heard this song, I fell in love with it. I totally connected with the song. Now, I really like Lewis' voice, but I'm sick of the song. It's played on the radio wayyyy too much.

5.Fidelity- Regina Spektor
I love this song. I love her voice. Enough said.

6. SexyBack- Justin Timberlake
So this is not one of those "I'mtotallyinlovewithsongIwanttohearitoverandover" kind of songs. But I do love it. It reminds me of band days at Mariner, and AJ. :]

7. Held- Natalie Grant
"This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held"

I like the lyrics to this song, and I also love her voice.
Definitely a song worth listening too.

8. Jesus of Suburbia- Greenday
This is one of the first Greenday songs I heard. I fell in love with that band thanks to my best friend. :] This song feels a little long though.

9. Wasted-Carrie Underwood
"I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted"

First of all, I like Carrie Underwood. Secondly, I like this song. I don't want to be like my Dad, and this song says that.

10. I Want It That Way- Backstreet Boys
I strongly dislike this song. The reason I added it was because it used to be my favoriteeeeee song ever. It was worth listening to it when I was younger. Now I have the cd hanging up on my wall. :]

i wrote a new poem today,

in like five minutes.
i was waiting for the bell to ring.
tell me what you think.
:]


you're scared.
i can feel it.
don't worry.
i'm scared too.
change is hard.
next year we'll have an amazing summer.
and next year we'll be in college.
we'll have the time of our lives.
so let's not be scared.
let's face our fears.
we'll always remember our times together.
what happens next is a mystery.
next year will be different for everyone.
we'll make it through the change.
we're a family now, and we will be then.
i'll never forget the class of '09.





P.S. It's raining really hard. :[

you know me
better than i do.
please help me
believe in myself,
like i believe in you.

you have the power,
to change me around,
and you have the knowledge,
to show me the secret.

so please help me.
show me how.
share that confidence.
i know that i can do all things with your help.

bye.

this is so hard.
i miss you.
so very much.
but we're apart now.
nothing can change that.
i might not exactly be over you yet.
but i will be.
i'm almost there.
you moved on,
and so can i.
we had some great times.
i will never forget those.
this is my good bye.

things are changing.
more than i could ever imagine.
so much is happening at once.
it's hard to deal with everything now.
but i have the support i need.
i can make it.
we can make it.
things are going to get better,
not worse.
it can't get much worse then this.
so i'm going to keep my hope.
i'm going to stay strong
for the people who need me the most now.
things are changing,
and i might not be ready,
but i'm not going to fall.

everything i see
reminds me of you.
a stuffed animal or two,
pictures,
a song or two,
your sweatshirts.
even wearing that dress makes me think of you.
i want to stay away from those memories.
i don't want to forget.
you changed me,
you changed my life.
you said i wouldn't have a reason to miss you,
but i do.
i still love you,
that's my reason.
we weren't perfect,
but we definitely had our moments.
we're over now.
there's no going back.

i smile.
but it's fake.
i'm happy.
yet at the same time i'm sad.
i don't want to feel this way anymore.
it's not your fault,
so don't blame yourself.
do something now.
help me.
love me.
be there for me.
i'll slowly start being happy again.